One step closer to you

This is a picture I took of the Salt Lake City Utah Temple last September (2010)

For the first time in a long time I am a temple recommend holder. To be honest I am so proud of myself. It has been kind of a journey to find my way back, it was a journey worth while. I have not been this joyful in a very long time, in fact I have been quite the cranky negative brat...

A while back i was reading my scriptures and was praying about what steps I needed to take to grow spiritually, to pullme out of this rut, I felt like I had hit a spritual growth wall... Overly discouraged, Satan was grasping onto every bit of myself discouragements and helping to drag me down. I said amen and continued reading my scriptures. About 15 minutes later I felt the spirit promiting me to get a temple recommend, I had gotten myself back into the routine of paying my tithing and fixed things with my bishop.... So what was holding me back...? shortly after that prompting "i love to see the temple" came on my Iphones music shuffle and I knew it was exactly the step i needed to take.

Weeks passed and again Satan wanted to keep me from helping others progress, my going to the temple and doing baptisms for the dead will be a help to those beyond the vail... So he got ahold of me again and made sure to make me feel like I was unworthy beat me into discouragement again and made me feel fearful of having the interview and almost stupid for even having the thought I was worthy today.

Today at church i saw my bishop, he told me he couldn't get me in until tuesday... I knew that if I put it off again I would just let it go and not ask him about it later on. So ifound one of his councilers and persisted that he give me my interview before I run from it again. Step by step I was able to answer all of the questions with the BIGGEST most happy smile on my face. At the end he handedme over my recommend, I was so overwhelmed with joy that I began to cry...

Today by being worthy of holding that Temple recommend I was able to take a step closer to Christ, and a step closser to eternity. I am so thankful that I am now able to not only walk the temple grounds, but actually go inside. I can not wait for the day that Cade and I will be able to go through and be sealed together for time and all eternity :)