Almost as many weeks as there are in a pregnancy. I am dying, next Sunday i get to talk to my lover on the phone. To hear is voice and be reminded that he is a real man, that i didn't make him up in my imagination makes me so incredibly happy. I love that he still makes me nervous like he is my first grade crush all over again. We have dated for almost 6 years. Which is so crazy to me. Not once have i ever stopped falling for him, with other guys since him and before him, the minute that they liked me back i always lost interest in them, with cade.. he has always found a way to keep me intrigued by him i have never lost that spark. Recently i have been hanging out with another boy, last night he told me that he has feelings for me and instantly i was repulsed by him. Every time cade and i kiss, touch, look at each other... anything.. it's like a surge of electricity shoots through my body.. Butterflies rush to escape from my tummy, my heart beats 10 beats fast and i lose all control of my smiles. The man truly has my heart. FOREVER.
What cade and i have is something so UNIQUE and so SPECIAL it is irreplaceable, nothing can compare to that man. he is such a special individual. He understands me, he changed me. He is my angel, my light, my life, my everything. He truly has all of me. For eternity. With out him here all day everyday I have grown to appreciate him even more than ever. I LOVE YOU ELDER M.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
43... times taking a speed up here.
forty three more weeks until my dearest is home, 43 three weeks to long, and 43 weeks not enough. Each Friday i get a letter from him proving how much he has grown. He is being reformed into the perfect father/husband. To see how much he has progressed spiritually, emotionally, physically, and mentally melts my heart and makes me fall for him more than ever. To know that my boy has turned into such a spiritual giant as a man warms my soul. To see his love grow towards the people he is teaching is incredible to me, to see him learning to love with no judgements, he truly is becoming more like the savior. Each letter i see that more and more, which makes me love him more than the week before :) hey, that rhymes!
Fourty FOUR OH EM GEE!!
I am a little behind on this. My laptop got STOLEN! so i am on the old school desktop.
REASON44: on a bad day cade was always there for me. He would do whatever it was he could do to cheer me up. No matter what it took. He found a way to spreads his happiness over to me. Well on the day of my laptop getting stolen it made me miss him more than ever. Usually he would have kept me calm, He ALWAYS kept my temper in check. AT all times. It was my brothers fault that the thief got it. So i blew up at him big time and really hurt his feelings. Cade would have not allowed for me to do so. So it was really hard not having him to go to in that moment of sadness. So my reason 44 is, he is very calm tempered, optimistic, and loves to be there for me in my moments of need and irrational actions. SO he pretty much. Balances me out and tones my flaws down. He lifts me up to be the best person i can become. Being around him, and knowing that my boyfriend is so amazing pushes me and makes me want to strive to be as good of a woman as he is a man. I strive each and every day to be the woman that he deserves <3
REASON44: on a bad day cade was always there for me. He would do whatever it was he could do to cheer me up. No matter what it took. He found a way to spreads his happiness over to me. Well on the day of my laptop getting stolen it made me miss him more than ever. Usually he would have kept me calm, He ALWAYS kept my temper in check. AT all times. It was my brothers fault that the thief got it. So i blew up at him big time and really hurt his feelings. Cade would have not allowed for me to do so. So it was really hard not having him to go to in that moment of sadness. So my reason 44 is, he is very calm tempered, optimistic, and loves to be there for me in my moments of need and irrational actions. SO he pretty much. Balances me out and tones my flaws down. He lifts me up to be the best person i can become. Being around him, and knowing that my boyfriend is so amazing pushes me and makes me want to strive to be as good of a woman as he is a man. I strive each and every day to be the woman that he deserves <3
Sunday, December 4, 2011
FOTEY FIVE that's right 45 mo weeks.
A little late now, we are creepin in to 44... seems as though week 45 slipped right past me(not complaining there)
Hormones... were every where this week. I missed him a lot. Elder M was always very tender and sensitive to my needs when I got this way.
After hearing news about my grandpa having melanoma all I could think is "where is my cade hug when I need it"
I got an incredible letter from him he told me "Sweetheart, I love you. NEVER EVER forget that. Even on those hard days. Well, especially on those days."
He is such a perfect man, and he truly loves me unconditionally. I am SO blessed to have him in my life. He keeps me going strong when it seems like it would be easier to give up. His smile could light up my entire world.
Really, some times I feel like he is so much better than me, like I don't deserve him, and I wonder to myself what I could have done to deserve this incredible man.. I must have done something right for go to bless me with him in my life <3
Hormones... were every where this week. I missed him a lot. Elder M was always very tender and sensitive to my needs when I got this way.
After hearing news about my grandpa having melanoma all I could think is "where is my cade hug when I need it"
I got an incredible letter from him he told me "Sweetheart, I love you. NEVER EVER forget that. Even on those hard days. Well, especially on those days."
He is such a perfect man, and he truly loves me unconditionally. I am SO blessed to have him in my life. He keeps me going strong when it seems like it would be easier to give up. His smile could light up my entire world.
Really, some times I feel like he is so much better than me, like I don't deserve him, and I wonder to myself what I could have done to deserve this incredible man.. I must have done something right for go to bless me with him in my life <3
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