Another one of those sleepless nights...

I like to think of my life as a story, I am the author, heavenly father is the editor and the atonement decides what gets published.

Each and every day you get to chose what you write on a new fresh page, so make it count, right? I want to make memories that will never be forgotten, I want to make my mark on this world and go out with a bang. I want to be remember. Now where do I start?? That is up to me.

I tend to be the girl that gets walked on, friends come and go from my life... Maybe I care a little to much, or my heart is out there to far, perhaps I should build a better wall around myself, grow thicker skin, or even let less people in. How can I make myself not become a door mat for the world around me... How can I not be the person every one comes to as they are in a moment of need, leave when that moment passes, and keep me waiting for the friend I might be able to turn to in those moments.....? That's when I realize in my heart that the those thoughts are all wrong.

When I die and meet my father in heaven face to face, when he asks what I did to serve my fellow men... My thoughts wont ever turn to "well maybe I served to much, got to little in return" or "maybe I should have loved a little less" my thoughts will be "I should have served more, I could have loved A LOT MORE... and judge A LOT LESS" I will be proud to say that I tried my best to serve those around me, and to love with out limits.

Service:

an act of helpful activity; help; aid: to do someone a service.

I feel as though service should be done with the intent of getting nothing in return. I want to learn to give of myself whole hearted, without hopes of having the favor returned to me. To be the listening ear, the helping hand, a shoulder to cry on, some one who gives of my extra means to some one in need, to love with out judgement, and to truly become Christ like.

Our loving heavenly father and savior Jesus Christ serve us each and every day just by giving us life, we are forever in debt to them, but when we give of our self to others to reach out and to serve them we to are serving our lord. Jesus died so that we might live, he did the ultimate act of service by dying on the cross so that we could have the atonement, to be forgiven of our sins. We are to repent of our sins each and every day so we can start the new one with a fresh page.

In this next year, I will learn to love with out end, I will learn to be patient with those around me, I will be willing to give of my time to others, I will learn to be kind, and not judgmental... I want to become more like the savior each and every day. Something as small and simple as a smile can stretch more than imaginable. I want to make a difference in the lives of those I become acquainted with, whether it be only a few minutes or an entire life time. I am going to make a change :)