Oh the days when you were here by my side, to enjoy these moment where I have my hormonal insanity.....
All the late night McDonalds runs to get your crazy girlfriend the once a month usual... "Hot fudge sunday WITH EXTRA FUDGE, please"
To start off.... I am pretty sure I bleed chocolate... My love for this heavenly treat... is unreal, and unhealthy... It is ridiculous how fast a bite of chocolate can make every problem in my world disappear... or in this case, be the root of all evil......
We were regulars. No matter the time of day he was always there to take me on a chocolate run.
-which pathetically led to tonight's emotional break down. irrational, crazy, weak, i know... please don't judge, to harshly at least.
Going through each member of my family, literally begging them to go to walmart to pick up a bag of ghiradelli milk chocolate chocolate chips i had seen a few days earlier, and since then had not been able to get them out of my mind. after passing through each person in the room not a single person would budge. (i think my family is heartless ;)
Finally run to my room to have my emotional break down like a 13 year old girl... while i am crying, well practically sobbing... laying on my bed, my mom comes into apologize she tells me how much she loves me and would do it if ir wasn't 10:00 at night, on a sunday yadda, yadda, yadda (with big tears in my eyes) my reply is: "Cade would go to the store and buy me chocolate" He would, he always did. No matter the day of the week.
One of the MANY reasons i love that man. He does EVERYTHING for me. I truly am spoiled by him. No matter the time of day or what day it was, if it was chocolate i needed it was chocolate I got.. funny that this would be the small moment to push me to have the first large break down that i have had in MONTHS.
But tonight, I miss him. I miss him more than the chocolate that i am craving.. In fact i crave to hold him, to lay my head on his shoulder and to listen to his heart beating, i crave his touch and his kiss more than i crave anything in the world..
I KNOW that he is in the right place, at the right time, serving the lord.... On nights like this though... I just wish he was here to softly kiss my shoulder no matter how insane i am being... and tell me how much he loves me.
If I count by my emotional(one week from every month) moments.... I only have ten more, until he is home to tell me i am not totally crazy... 10 more and he will be here to buy me that bag of chocolate and stare at me with that adorable half smile i think you are totally insane but i love you anyways look. ten more short months and my craving will be satisfied... Until then.... chocolate will have to do ;)
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